35 weeks

Pregnancy is flying by. I have to stop myself from thinking about how soon she'll be here. I start doing all these comparisons in my mind.. Richelle found out what she was having 4 weeks ago from next Wednesday. By next Wednesday I will have as much time left in my pregnancy as time has passed since she found out! It seems like that big news happened just yesterday! I seriously start to have a panic attack when I think about it. My dreams have been filled with nothing but labor and delivery and what my baby looks like.. so far.. sad to say, my dreams have not made her very cute ;) So I'm hoping they aren't as real as they sometimes seem. I am scared and so excited for the next 5 weeks to pass. Becoming a mommy of 2 kind of scares the daylights out of me. I'm scared for the transition. I really hope I can be the kind of mom I want to be.. I'm hoping the newborn phase will be less of a shocker this time around. I really can't wait, scared or not! This baby is going to be so, so loved. I can't wait to kiss her and hold her. 

Everything about this pregnancy has been so different. Baby girl is so different from Caden. Some nights while I'm sitting on the couch I seriously feel like she is going to explode out of my skin because of how hard she kicks. Taylor and I will watch her move and it looks like 2 cats fighting under my skin. I don't know how my body even handles the movement. She isn't causing me much pain while she moves. She's not quite in my ribs yet. She loves to be on my right side, I always find myself leaning to the left to make more room for her wiggly feet. She moves so much more than Caden ever did. She is really responsive to Taylor and Caden. This morning while I was still in bed, Taylor bent down and started talking to her. She has been dead still up till that point, but the second she heard his voice she was kicking his hands and face. Caden loves to lay his head on my tummy and make weird sounds or repeat "hi baby, hi baby" and feel her kick his head. Hopefully that doesn't become a trend.. kicking big brothers head. I can't wait to have her here to add to our family. We are so excited.

My fears of my body being in the same "state" as it was with Caden are practically gone. I can have felt so much better this pregnancy, it isn't even comparable. By 35 weeks the first time around I was swearing I'd never have another baby. My back killed. I was living on tums. My feet were so swollen I couldn't wear normal shoes. Life was pretty miserable. I have little to nothing to complain about this time. It seems like it's too good to be true. I figured that, at this point, in order for me to weigh as much as I did the day I delivered Caden, I would have to gain 23 lbs in the next 5 weeks! 23 lbs! Can you believe that? I'm not worried that is going to happen ;) I might not meet my weight gain goal, but I have certainly tried my best. One thing is for sure. I will never let myself go like I did with Caden. Eating well, eating the right amount, and exercising {occasionally} has made all the difference in how good I have felt this time around.

Here's my 35 week comparison picture:
Caden on the left. Baby Girl on the right
Things are looking great at my appointments, I am hoping and praying that I will go into labor on my own. No emergency inductions. And I'm hoping I don't come more than 5 days late.. That would mean 2 more family members will miss her birth :( Starting next Tuesday they will check to see if I'm dilating! I really hope I do this time, being induced a week late at 1 1/2 cm was painful and disappointing. How early do most people start dilating anyway? What is a normal number per week for the last 4 weeks? I'm clueless. All I can do is hope.. and maybe go jump on a trampoline.. that should help right? ;)



Graduate A

The end of May. This has to be one of my favorite times of year. The snow is gone, the rain is {almost} gone, and it's warm enough to forget about the jacket! Summer is just around the corner. The kids are getting out of school. Let the fun begin!

I can hardly believe it's been five years since I graduated. Had someone asked me 5 years ago where I would be today.. My answer would have been completely different than where my life has taken me. A husband, 2 kids, a house. I never would have dreamed this is where I would be. Life is so much better than I could have expected. It was hard to believe Lane was graduating 3 years ago, and now watching my little sister walk in cap and gown was somewhat surreal. This girl is going places. She is so smart and funny. BYU broadcasting department is banging down her door to give her a job. She's going to find some lucky guy and hopefully give me a few nieces and nephews... ok, maybe not in the "near" future.. but I can dream, right?

This was the day Lane graduated. I can't believe all the changes 3 years has brought.

Some things have stayed the same and others have drastically changed: Jarom is now towering over me. Ben is almost as tall as Me and Rachel. Taylor now looks like a man instead of a scrawny boy ;) sorry babe.. you know you look a little shrimpy in that picture. Caden is almost as big as nanny was.. almost ;). My brothers are all getting so handsome! My pregnant body is looking much better this time around. There is only a 3 week difference in how far a long I am/was in these pictures. 35 weeks now, 32 weeks then... funny how that worked out. Rachel's hair somehow ended up being about the same length. And none of us can wait for Lane to get back home at the end of this year!


Oh, the goofy picture..


Graduate A! My mom made her a $100 lei + a candy lei, and Caden and I made her a $20.11 lei. It looked like she has a boa constrictor around her neck! Everyone was touching her money as she walked past, haha. Spoiled little girl! 


Caden scooped up Auntie A's violin as soon as the orchestra was done playing for the ceremony. He wanted to carry it everywhere for her. While I was taking some pictures of her and her friends he tugged on my shirt and said "Mommy ook at me! I BIG STRONG!" haha. This case was almost as big as him so he thought he was pretty tough to be carrying it around.


I love these pictures of her. She is such a doll. Another Leishman Graduate! Congratulations Sista!
Rachel's Graduation Announcement FINAL2


It's about time

I've been feeling a little down the last week or so, I seriously think it has something to do with the weather ;) Enough with the rain and the clouds! I would die for an hour of sunshine. 

I came across this image today. 

It got me thinking. What makes me happy? My immediate thought was "shopping!" HA, can't do more of that. I thought a little more. Things that really make me happy... Spending time with my little boy. I love sitting out on the deck talking to him and observing things going on. He makes me laugh so hard, the little phrases he picks up and says constantly, like: "Actually... No"  or "One Second". He pulls the funniest faces and makes the best expressions. I love that he'll sit down and have a conversation with me. He makes my day every day. What else makes me happy? Being outside, going on a walk. As bizarre as it might sound cleaning makes me happy. I don't like to have to clean, but it makes me happy once it's done. Cooking a good meal makes me happy. Eating healthy makes me happy. I am most happy when I find myself doing the things that I know I should be doing, taking care of myself and my family.

I love doing projects . That feeling of accomplishment is so rewarding. But as the last few months have passed and project after project has been checked off I don't find myself being as happy as I would like to be. I feel guilty when I take time away from being with Caden to finish this or that. Or leaving Taylor to watch a movie by himself so I can start something else. That is not rewarding. I have spent the last 2 weeks going over and over my never ending list of things to do before this baby gets here. I am overwhelming myself, I have too much on my list. I need to cut it down. I don't need to do everything right now. It would be nice to have it all done, but there are other things that are more important. My little boy isn't going to be my only child for much longer and I want him to know and feel how special he is. I want him to have all the attention he can get.

I'm going to do more of what makes me really happy. Serving, loving and enjoying the moment. Time is passing too quickly and I don't want it to pass with feelings of regret. 

Life is too good to let it slip by.


and the winner is....

du du du DAH! 

Wouldn't you know.. I choose one that I don't even ask anyone's opinion on.. Sheesh. I found this last minute and I knew I had found my bag. Here's my reasoning. This bag is seriously the best bright color ever. It really goes with everything. I have a mustard yellow bag and It is falling apart from how much I use it. I know this is a good color choice for me. I love the longer fabric shoulder straps on this bag, and the removable messenger strap. This will fit so much better under my arm, and if it happens to be overflowing with blankets and books [definitely will happen] I know I'll have room to still pull the straps over my shoulder. If I want to take off that messenger strap then I have 2 nice D rings that I can clip a pacifier pouch and keys to. It is nice and deep and has great pockets on both sides of the inner bag. It is practically perfect. AND the inside is purple! Hooray for more color! The consensus from the post below is definitely favoring bag #2. That would have been my top pick out of all those bags. Once I have a little bit of extra money to spend I will most definitely be getting that bag as well. My only problem with it is the straps.. For a diaper bag, I just think it might be a little too close to my under arm to stay on my shoulder. I am seriously in love though.. Maybe a good birthday present? We'll see!

Today was the start of some FANTASTIC sewing projects. I know.. I need to post pictures. And my pile of "to dos" is slowly turning to "dones".
I am feeling a little relief. 

Check me out over here tomorrow! Cute and easy tutorial you'll love!



Diaper Bag Love

July 1st is fast approaching! I have been finishing things here and there. The nursery is still underway, but I'm making progress. I have a million felt flowers, half made, half cut.. sitting in a bowl with no clips attached. So I still have a lot of work to do. As I have been looking over my "to do list" I am realizing most of the things I need and want to make are all going in one special bag. The Diaper Bag! Yikes and I don't even have one! I've spent the last several days doing some searching and have come across quite an assortment of bags that are all pretty smashing! My problem is... well, I can't decide! This is my mothers day present and Taylor is begging me to make a decision. HA. Good Luck ME! So I need some help. I obviously love the bags on the top row.. but color choice is hard for me. I have a mustard yellow bag that I love (it goes with everything), I am in love with the stripes and Black is so classy! Plus I have 6 other fabulous bags that I keep going back and forth between. So give me some opinions! Which one is your absolute favorite? Cause this mommy can't decide!

diaper bag love

Which one... which one..

If you want to see the insides of these bags visit my Pinterest and click on the bag, then wait for it to come up on its own page, then click on it again and it should take you to the etsy store I found it at. The etsy stores have lots of other pictures as well.

Thanks for your help Ladies!